AHHHHHHHHH

So this group is having a national conference of people living with HIV/AIDs in the region this week. I didn't know anything about till Monday. Tuesday, I somehow ended up in the final planning committee. This committee was made up of me, and eight other people. 5 of those people have been national figures for years in the fight against HIV, and then there was a private consultant, and then me and john, and another girl from our office. I don't know how important I look, but credentials wise, I was about 10 years short of the next person there. Long story short I will chair one of the meetings on Friday/tomorrow, and yeah.

The first day (yesterday) was good hearing from the director of Health and social services for Namibia. (like the guy who the president has put in charge of all health issues) But, after hearing some big names realized, that this conference is a much smaller deal then it has been in the past. One case of missing money and global fund pulling out funds from the group has reduced their capacity, immensely (it didn't seem to actually work from stories of the past and what is on their agenda). Importance, aside, now I have to think about how this meeting is a target or platform to attack. This is a conference of people without power at the moment, but who are clearly using it to show that they are now working together (one of the reasons they lost funding is they didn't play nice with other org's). Unfortunately this conference is a mix of ok subjects and and underlined attack at organizations like ours that got their funding and the ministry. I am doing a horrible job at explaining this again, but pretty much they have good speakers, followed by people making demands and trying to undermine other peoples position. Oh the messes I find myself in. Send me a facebook message and i will try to give a better picture, or don't and just try to piece this together.

In other news I just found out my trip to the capital starting Saturday is cancelled. I really hate how people expect you to do things on time here as Americans, but organizations are almost as lots as most people are. Case in point, peace corps still has not official told me that my mid service medical is cancelled. (how this is mid service month 8 into a 26 month trip i have no idea). I talked to Paul, (Paul is a PCV who never left the US till he was 48, and is now like 58 and on his fourth PC assignment, he did Senegal, El Salvador, and finished a tour in Romania about 3 weeks before coming here) He understands PC is slow at getting info across, but though it made more since when we didn't all have cell phones.

Shoot I need to run no proof reading today, as if it mattered at this point.